I've put on a lot of weight because my paranoid parents sent me to a counselor... sigh. I was admitted to hospital and I've been out for 5 weeks. Sheesh. Now I want some control but its so blooming hard with everyone watching. I weigh 102 lbs and my target weight is 80 lbs. Here are some of my tips and tricks... Pro Ana or whatever...

• Whilst eating slide less obvious sized pieces of food under the sleeve of a top.
• The previous works with tissue.
• If you have to eat with your parents, then whilst grabbing whatever, get half of it and throw it away or shove it in your pocket and eat the other half or the last bit of it with them to show you've eaten it.
• (This is an old one) Leave bits of food or crumbs scattered on a plate and leave dirty dishes around claiming you've eaten whatever's been in them.
• Remind yourself frequently that everyone else around you are weak... You're stronger than they are because you're still going.
• This is a weird one but um when no-ones around shout at the food, abuse it... Say you don't need it and it makes you miserable because you have to think about it all the time
• Feeling like the smallest is the most comforting feeling ever... Don't you want to get that? Watch those around you in disgust. You're so strong and pure. You're better...
• Look in the mirror often. Remember that you don't need to...cant be like this anymore
• Diet Drinks fill you up right? If you're really hungry, go on a coke binge... Guilt free no?
• Comparing yourself to others gives you the courage to keep on going.
• Have a spoon full of vinegar before you eat... it will put you off food because its disgusting, it burns half more of the fat that you eat.
• Make a two egg omelet but throw away the yolks and prepare them claiming you've eaten 150 calories rather that 34...
• Regularly look at your thinspo... Need I say more?

I'll um post some more... ugh I have to finish off this frigging essay about some dude in the past... pointless because he's dead...